Fast.

Hello all (the few) who read my posts, on Monday I started a fast, this fast includes buying only necessities. Gas. No eating out unless someone is buying, no more coffee runs, ect. I also will limit any food I get, rations if you will. I will rarely eat from my house, if I do it can only be things found in third world countries, i.e. fruits. Why this fast? Because I want to train my body to not always crave food, allow it to run in desperate situations, which could include no food for a week. Right now I am pacing my body, I am eating food I can find for free, later this week I will be making it a little harsher. Week by week it will continue to be more and more scarce. I hope to be at a level that I could go a week without needing food, so in about three months that's where I'll be. So let me ask you something, how far would you go to accomplish a goal? Americans are so lazy, I am challenging you to a week without being lazy. Example: Don't use the automatic doors, find some manual doors. Maybe park in the back of a parking lot and walk for a change. No escalators!!

Later this week I'll be talking about being alive. yes, alive.

Worthless life?

Were you like me, raised through high school thinking that if you don't go to college you won't succeed? Thinking that in order to have a good life you need a nice job? Our updated version of the american dream is flat out stupid. White house two story house, red shutters, white picket fence, 2.5 kids, a dog (golden retriever), a good wife. That is a messed up vision that will either never happen, or when it does you will come to realize was never at all what you wanted. Look at me, dropped out of college, barely making it by, and I have never been happier. You surround yourself with goals and achievements that you expect to have done by a certain age, so you constantly seek it; yet you are sorely disappointed. I see this in a lot of students lives, they become over-stressed with school, depressed because of their lives, and eventually go on to live average lives. Wouldn't you rather step out of that zone and live a life of faith? What about if you lived week by week not knowing how your money would be coming in? I would think, screw that, know that if you lived a life pursuing God and seeking him earnestly, living by faith that you will never be more satisfied. It is like He is pouring out into your life and you either don't want to receive it, or you are to scared to try. What is holding you back? A girl? Relentless classes? Fear? In all honesty, you need to cut that out. Immediately. Sure people are going to be pissed at you, people are going to bring you down, but look at Jeremiah's life. He was told he would never marry, have kids, he was told he was going to have a crap life. (in a worldy stance) He couldn't have been used anymore than he was. How great would that be? To be used non stop for his glory. I'm sorry that I don't care that you are "struggling". The fact is that you just want to use that so you can be pitied. That's dumb. Grow up. Seek him. I am called to a life of hardship and I couldn't be happier. You know why? Because it's all for his glory. So I don't want to hear that you and you little brother are fighting over your x-box, while people all over the world are dying because of a lack of food and water. What I'll bring to these people is more that and food you can eat, or any water that can quench your thirst. I am bringing the living God, the God that will save your soul from damnation, the one who will deliver you from addiction, he will become your addiction, you strong tower, your rock, the foundation in which you stand, so good luck with your petty problems. Be selfish. It's cool. I'm sure when someone asks you down the line, was it worth it, you'll say, ...no. Live for him, and let him live through you.

Good luck with your week, hope you don't live a life of meritocracy.

Project RAWR

Project RAWR

So I have found the perfect title for my project! Project RAWR! Awesome right? Well let me explain... Revealing Authentic Worship Resolutions - RAWR! This is a mission statement, creating stability in third world countries! I can't wait to begin this exciting chapter in my life! Follow me & my project on twitter - @wesleymatlock, @ProjectRAWR

Getto Curtain

Well this is new, I haven't blogged since xanga. Is that still around, that was before Myspace. <>

Yesterday was an amazing day, woke up, spent time with Jesus, Read, Worshipped, the greatest start to any morning. Work day was enjoyable, ruined a curtain. It looks quite getto. Small group was the best yet, project: make a list of 100 things you want to do before you die, and lets get started on the rest of your life!

Clarity: So for a while know I have been seeking where I should start my ministry work, I have finally got the okay to start it. (have to find a name for it) The main goal is to bring an authentic worship experience to third world countries along with providing a mature foundation to build upon. Can't wait to begin!